10 posts tagged “life”
seriously. do you?
Mainstream music doesn't really provide substantial content. I mean there are times when songs slip through via some retro/old school/rush hour mix. That moment you hear Ms. Lauryn Hill's oooo oooo oooo, we get taken back to 1996, then come Nas' 1st 16. If I ruled the world off of Nas' It was written..
My ass has always found myself in ruts, I tend to 'recycle' a lot. Everyone has their damn soundtracks of their lives but really damn. I don't know if recently its 'saved my life'. Bow Wow ft T-Pain & Johnta Austin_Outta My System. Didn't really save my life, but it was 2007's track of the year. Hah. But as for saving lives really, wow i have to check itunes. Album wise Lupe Fiasco "Food & Liquor", Kanye West "Late Registration" are candidates. I was on some homesick shit back then and that album helped out a lot. It gave me somn to be hype about when I was up north. Common "Be," that entire album is good. I can never fast forward through that shiet cuz its so good. Okay back on track, the tracks that always get me through things and I guess 'save my life' are:
- Nas_One Mic
- Nas_If I Ruled the World
- Pharcyde_Runnin
- Dilated Peoples ft Kanye West_This Way
- Dilated Peoples_Worst Comes to Worst
- Talib Kweli_Get By
- Procussions_Leave Her Alone
- Procussions ft Talib Kweli_Miss January Remix
- Common_Faithful
- Common_The Light
I can go on for days, but those songs are always positive in my book. I'm not letting any right wing conservative cutt down Nas. I know most of them are hip-hop Its just the fact that hip-hop has been there when I needed something. Hip hop has seriously been there for me @ 3am when I can't sleep and I know damn sure no one's awake. Those lonely times there was no one to turn to, these jams helped me out with hella things in my life. Breakups, females, school, life issues. Hip hop is such a versatile platform, it's really not always about guns and the hood. Its just about life inside &outside of the hood. To be more specific, the last time music saved my life was from April 2007- current. I needed music to help me going.
Take a look at yourself now. What jams did you turn to? & and do you remember the last time music saved your life?
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What inspires you to blog?
Really, it's what happens around in my life that makes me want to blog. I'm pretty sure my life is unique compared to others, sorry in the least egotistical way. I believe too much happens to me to not have it written down. Maybe it's easier for me to blog rather than physically write in my journal but either way. I feel like my life is open to share with you guys out there in blog land. If I didn't want my ish to be put on public display then I'd keep it to a) my private blog or b) my journal. Take my blogs as an invite to my world, but never be too shy to converse with me. I'm really open to new people and experiences, but dont get me wrong I have my predispositions about people, just be yourself and we'll play it by ear.
Plus, I blog because one day I'm gonna forget who I am, and what I blog about is a piece of who I am.
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this is a post to actually talk about appreciating rather than hating. i could go on and on about the things that i hate the most or the things that irritate me, such as ugg boots with mini skirts or the fashions of college aged Caucasian females. haha but thats another story and a negative vibe. this right here is actually positive.
today i actually for the first time in a while appreciate what was on the radio. usually i tune into my radio on my presets hip hop stations in the area (z90, 989, Power106) the top 40 (933, 104.3) and the college jazz station (KSDS 88.3) thats my first set on the FM not including the 2nd set where originally its Bay presets but plays out to be my alternative vibe that i check every once in awhile. yes i have CDs but i play those out hella quick real talk. too many damn 8hr drives and those CDs are done and played twice. so thats out of the question and im seriously tired of boots with the fur and Akon's next big thing. but tonight was different as i was leaving city college i was tuning into KSDS and since it was past 10pm i was tuned into the Illphonics show and real talk, they play the music that matters, the hip hop that would never get play on our conglomerate radio stations here in SoCal. i heard the new Erykah Badu track produced by 9th wonder. Goapele_Closer, the Talib Kweli_Hot Thing Remix that i just found out about the other day and Common_Misunderstood and im like in love with hip hop again and so refreshed right now its so dope.
so in the end i appreciate the crap thats on the radio because it helps me love hip hop even more. at the end of tonight im in love with hip hop more than i've ever been in my somewhat short relationship with hip hop.
on the same tone of appreciation;
i do need a break from my friends aside from work and whatnot, i think i will choose not to participate in large group activities for a minute because i need to pull myself together and appreciate everyone's presence. when i was lonely my friends were 8hrs away and there was nothing i could do about it but cope and just wait til the weekend i could come home and now seriously now that im back i've fallen back in routines of 3-4 years ago where i was always with friends and doing the same things. but i need to appreciate the things that i have again.
yah its that low-maintenance rising up again
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so 21.
big hype right?
club nights why everyone loves life.
i guess...
its just weird real talk, how im 21 and seriously not a lot of ish to do now. i know im limiting my self cuz i dont club/party/smoke and all that shit. yah im a weird specimen. but real shit i dont do that ish cuz its just not my vibe. its just a trip how like i swear i used up all the fun from after high school til like now. 3 years, aint ish to do now..video games, parking lot pimpn, YO ITS THE SAME THING FOR THE LAST FEW YEARS.
i think seriously one of these days imma end up bar hopping to chill, cuz at this moment hecka not cool with what im doing. that or i need a girlfriend...HAH! whatever but realness i think imma just get real involved on campus real soon cuz obviously..or make more friends thats an option too.
theres no more fun in the things that we do now and im starting to see that. like what the f? i remember when all the simple shit used to be real fun, or like when you first had the car on a friday night go anywhere and just chill with folks or like meet new people some how some way. i guess its like what happens according to philosophy, you can do anything for extended period of time you'll burn out. and i think im at that point right now. burned out from the same things that used to be fun. i need something fresh. THATS LEGAL.
i should really start hiding under a rock.
or since thats bullshit, its time to be productive
RE/DEF, career time..
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What's on your holiday wishlist?
26" flat screen HD TV. XBOX360. milgrow. hahaha
What are some ways you save money?
Submitted by Pixiemom.
easy, by not spending it and not looking online for something to buy, or going to the mall period.
oh yah not having a gf is saving money. LOL
just a thought, what if i didn't come back to SD?
so yes, the new Erwin shouldn't divulge into this situation but really its been in my head and really it cant leave but imma really get into this. so if the situations were different in 2006, if I had a straight head on my shoulders and i wasn't feelin like shit. let's see what and who i would've effected...
50-100% sure:
- J&A_so i know damn sure if their drama went down no matter there would have been a conflict of interest cuz i know i probably wouldn't have told A about J's business. I wouldn't be around and if everyone was cool with each other, it wouldn't bug me as much then.
- JV_homeboy said that if i wasnt around as much, he would be pursuing psychology more than art. art would be more of a side thing than what it is now. i guess its what i said about being a starving artist. how in our 20s we should just do whatever we want and follow our hearts because when we get to our 30s and early 40s we cant afford that.
- RIE_probably we wouldnt have been close as we are now. but then again it took a tragedy for us to get closer. she would be doing her own thang as with me
- COWORKERS_i would have none because i wouldnt be working at del mar.
- RE/DEF_this wouldnt exist
- MENDOZA IN THE MORNING_this too because i wouldnt have to take RTV130.
- OLI_he could have quited if i wasnt around, im not sure JV was enough pull for him to stay longer than he was. plus i know that if hawaii wasnt in plan he be gone by now.
- M&E_this is a variable, i really wouldnt know. seriously.
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Which person from your past, who you've lost touch with, do you wonder about the most?
Submitted by ancora impara.
The thing about this question is that there are certainly a few that I do wonder about nowadays. But then again the question also points to the future for me. Its semi-depressing, but first let's tackle the first part of this question.
One day during my senior year of high school I was driving home to Escondido and just thought of one of my good elementary buddies, Nicole. See I went to elementary school in the San Francisco & over in San Diego. Nicole was a shorty filipino girl that I always thought of as a good friend or maybe even best friend, I dont remember. But after I left SF to return to San Diego I lost touch with her for a good 10 years? I thought about her and I was like I hope she's doing good. Then the weird thing is through myspace she found me, and messaged me a few days after I honestly gave her a good thinking. It was weird. We communicate through AIM every now and then so its chill, whatever. haha
But as to who I wonder about now, let's see...actually no one in particular. I keep thinking to myself, they're out of your life for a reason. They're in your past for a reason, and if they really want to be in your present, they would.
This brings up the 2nd part of the question. Personally, the quote takes a jab a the future. Temporal shit hasn't always been my thing and making sense out of it is seriously hard but i do know this. The term past and its connotations needs a specific time. We could talk about the 10 seconds ago past, where I haven't talked to my boys in a few days, and I do wonder what they're up to. Or we could talk about God, I do wonder what He's up to all the time. 10 seconds from now I could be thinking about a certain someone and how they're doing, but as I typed this 10 seconds have past and I'm still in thought of a certain someone. Philosophically, thats how I kinda stand with spatio-temporal shit.
The future hasn't always been my strength. Career wise, my future is open, I have so many doors and options its ridiculous. Its all on me on how and when I want to walk through those doors and see where life will take me. So my future is as bright as the sun in the Arctic. But, personal/love life..gah thats where eerything gets all messy. Ya see, when I love femmes aka ex's. I honestly care a whole deal about them, some I just say fuck it, but there are a few (<3, no really less than 3. haha) that I want to be there for. Esp. the last.. but thats too messy and another story.
Oh well this post has gone on too far.
Im done.
What's the most memorable crush you have had?
Submitted by spectacular.
First love #1 & #2. long story haha
Finish this sentence: "I am glad to say that I have never ___."
Submitted by chl*.
blazed. I guess during high school or whatnot my close friends went all experimental on me and a good number of them started to blaze. I on the other hand was/still is a good boy and didnt really wanna get caught up in it. I think for me in all honesty, I'm glad that I didn't because I know realize that shit aint me. Never will weed get in my life, drinks yeah, but its chill though. I never let drugs ever get in my way of my friendships nor did I look at my friends differently only in shock but im glad.
