3 posts tagged “sd”

just a thought, what if i didn't come back to SD?

so yes, the new Erwin shouldn't divulge into this situation but really its been in my head and really it cant leave but imma really get into this. so if the situations were different in 2006, if I had a straight head on my shoulders and i wasn't feelin like shit. let's see what and who i would've effected...

50-100% sure:

• J&A_so i know damn sure if their drama went down no matter there would have been a conflict of interest cuz i know i probably wouldn't have told A about J's business. I wouldn't be around and if everyone was cool with each other, it wouldn't bug me as much then.
• JV_homeboy said that if i wasnt around as much, he would be pursuing psychology more than art. art would be more of a side thing than what it is now. i guess its what i said about being a starving artist. how in our 20s we should just do whatever we want and follow our hearts because when we get to our 30s and early 40s we cant afford that.
• RIE_probably we wouldnt have been close as we are now. but then again it took a tragedy for us to get closer. she would be doing her own thang as with me
• COWORKERS_i would have none because i wouldnt be working at del mar.
• RE/DEF_this wouldnt exist
• MENDOZA IN THE MORNING_this too because i wouldnt have to take RTV130.
  

50% sure:

• OLI_he could have quited if i wasnt around, im not sure JV was enough pull for him to stay longer than he was. plus i know that if hawaii wasnt in plan he be gone by now.

0-50% sure:

• M&E_this is a variable, i really wouldnt know. seriously.

so yeah this is part 1 because i gotta think about part 2, which should consist of BAY AREA possibilities, i just wrote about the SD possibilities, because its easier to touch something that has more depth than purely skeptical. its just interesting who i touched in my 20, almost 21 years of life. who i've been around and alla that. every person on this planet has a drive and a purpose, no life is a waste. and because of that fact i dont commit suicide. i have too much influence on this life and those around me. keep it tuned for pt 2.

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